New Now thinking thread.

Here's a link for Stu.

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Quote: Claire, Sept 2014

Stu...how have you gotten round the filters?

I think the filters were turned off. I've subconsciously self-filtered myself on a few occasions.

F*ck sh*t p*ss c*nt The scottish Play

Terrible is what it is. She has failed a little at internetting, I say.

Anyway, being tired and going through caffiene withdrawn, probably not the best time to be doing wood work.

I've gotten myself in the thumb three times with the saw, and came very close to drilling.through my finger also
Bed time, maybe.

Quote: Maeby, Sept 2014

I just can't see anything positive happening any time soon, Wifey.

I just need this year to f*ck off and leave me alone. But it won't. It never does.

Tiny things will happen! I know it! Everyday things. Sadness cannot be forever. It is lots of tiny sparks and hopes, always, always.

Everyone is here! Please take refuge in all your friends.

Please stay strong! You have been so amazing and inspirational!

Oh gosh - I did not think it is mean at-all! I am not sure I would be a good motivational speaker at-all. - I am lots too scatty and shy, I think, and also I am not sure I believe in them at-all. They make me think of David Brent and evangelists and The Wolf of Wall Street, I think. :s

I am going to try to be a counsellor, I hope. I am going back to college on monday! Lots of things have happened to me and my friends and my family in the last 2-3 years, but I am reassuring and hopeful, I think, and I can think of lots of the right words. I can see patterns and lights and hopes, and also I can help think of plans and thoughts, and try to show everything is not so scary and bad and overwhelming, sometimes. I realised I am ok at it, maybe?
I try to look after everyone. I can hide all my sadness for a tiny while, and help everyone else. I really want everyone to be ok!
I am really naïve and idealistic, sometimes, I think, but everything is true too, I hope.

Also, I have depression, sometimes, and I have been so lonely and alone and overwhelmed. - I do not want other people to be sad too (but sadness is helpful, sometimes). - I should try to be hopeful and encouraging and filled up with hugs and cake. Happiness is not big facebook life events; it is lots of tiny inbetween things, I think - it is hugs and tea and cake with friends and new books and movies and music and all the tiny things you like and look forward to.
We should not be lonely. We are not alone at-all. Everyone is all here and so close! London is one hour away, Yorkshire is 4 hours way, Scotland is half a day. We can look after eachother. My friends have rescued me so many times.

Please does everything make sense? I am sorry I am pretty scatty and muddled.

"I'd prefer to become someone who can make the world a little better. That would be the best thing. But I don't know if it is possible. I don't know what it takes to make the world better. I feel uncertain that is enough just to smile at everybody I meet".

So much to do, so little time, barely any opportunity to Crack on with it
:-(

I figure a wider audience will get a kick out of this but I can't put it on Facebook for various reasons.

A drunk Japanese old man actually thanked me personally for WW2... He's my co-workers dad and she was translating most of what he said.

Old dude: (Japanese) I could understand a little but there was a lot of high level vocab in there.
Coworker: He's saying that after WW2 education in Japan increased and your country brought democracy.
Old dude: (In English, while staring into my eyes) THANK YOU SO MUCH.
Me: no probs dude! *high five*

(Last line didn't actually happen).

Kind of awkward. To thank me means in my mind that he thinks I'm responsible, but probably he doesn't mean it that way in his mind. I guess it's just his misguided way of showing me that he isn't angry about the war. He's gone way too far in the other direction though.

Later on, after several changes of topic (most of which I couldn't keep up with), he asks his daughter/my coworker to tell me something else on his behalf.

Old dude: (Japanese)
Coworker: He's saying that after WW2 women became empowered and started being able to be equal with men.
Old dude: (In English, while reaching to take my hand) I AM SO SORRY.

That's probably the most shocked I've been during two years of crazy sh*t happening on a daily basis. Gobsmacked! Had to laugh, but purely as a social masking of true feelings. That just isn't on