i took Pearl the dog out last night and i saw a yellow balloon near the church. And when we walked in the field near the pug house, i saw a settee cushion that was partly burnt.
i took Pearl out this morning at 6.30. Not many people were there but i could see a woman across the road from me. Then i took her out at 8 this morning and i saw some cars near the church. One of them had National Trust stickers.
At 9.30 this morning, i heard the church bells ring. i don't know if Pearl heard them or if she did she didn't seem interested. She was more interested in lying on her quilt and sniffing the quilt.
Yesterday, i told Marc that i had a leaflet from the Welsh conservatives. Then he said that he's only had one leaflet from them in the past few weeks but i've had three.
i watched NCIS a few hours ago. Series 6, episode 21. There was a bit where Abby says What is Abby's rule number one? Do not lie to Abby. It often p*sses me off when people refer to themselves in the third person. But then being lied to p*sses me off as well. Lying is one of the reasons why i feel terrible/ have been crying hundreds of times since November.
They showed that film again on Friday. Marc said that he'd seen that film and that it was stupid. i haven't seen that film. i can't cope with being reminded and that's why i haven't seen it.
Today, i saw a lorry. It had England written on it and two British flags. i sometimes miss England, even though i think that i don't miss it as much as i used to.
It feels like all I do is focus on the negatives, but then it also feels like nothing really ever goes right for me - like my lot in life is to be alone.
Hey there, emo kid.
Aw, i wish i lived near you. Or had the guts to meet you again.
i watched Couples Come Dine with Me today and something on there reminded me of what happened in November. Well, in a creepy/ sl*tty way because i'm not obsessed with s*x. Everything reminds me of what happened in November and that's why I've cried hundreds of times.
Yesterday, i saw a car that had a bike on it, two cars that had several cars on them and two men that had suitcases on wheels. They must all have been going on holiday.
i haven't been on holiday since 2012 and the last one i went on was a disaster.
Yesterday, i was watching Come Dine with Me and some bloke on there said that he hates having his photo taken more than anything in the world. i don't know if i'd put it that strongly but i know the feeling. Because it sometimes p*sses me off that some people put so much emphasis on what people look like.
A few days ago, some workmen were at my flat. At one point, one of them started singing the song that i named myself after. That's the second time that happened; the first time was when i was at my third college.
i was watching The X Files yesterday and Scully said that she'd always found it hard to be close to people. i know the feeling, perhaps because i make some people hurt me.
Valuation being done on the house I want to buy today. This is the stage I got to last time where I ended up losing the house because of it. Hopefully all goes well this time.
Plus I get to have a proper 'building survey' look around on Saturday. See what it's really like under the covers.
All going well, could be in it some time next month.
Mal: Appears we got here just in the nick of time. What does that make us? Zoë: Big damn heroes, sir. Mal: Ain't we just.
The fashion for people to wear trousers that show their pants, is still happening. i'd thought it had died out but it seems not. Because when i went out today, i saw a man that was following that fashion. Also, he was topless but i s'pose it's tradition in Britain for some to be topless in the summer.
i was watching The Big Bang Theory half an hour ago and Raj said that Leonard was a pushover. Sometimes i think that some people think i'm a pushover. Partly because of what happened in November. Being controlled and having my head f**ked with.
Yesterday, Marc said that some men asked him for directions to a pub. Also, he said that they sounded like they were from Wigan. Aw, i haven't been to Wigan since 2004.
There's this other forum that i post on. Well, one of the other forums. And i've been looking at one of the old Now thinking threads there. Well, they're similar to Now thinking but with a different name. And they get locked at 1001 pages not 150. Someone made a post where she said You know sometimes the more you think about something, the angrier it makes you. Like time actually makes it worse. That.
i'm not keen on her but i know the feeling. Sadly.
Emma:
So… Posting a new thread is Fission Mailing… so I’m putting this here.
Emma:
I know there aren’t many people looking at this anymore… but I have made the decision to stop paying for the VR hosting and to let the domain lapse.
Emma:
I think it will be going offline around the end of May
Emma:
It’s been almost 10 years since James passed away… and I feel like it’s time.
Emma:
A lot of the regulars can be found on the VR veterans group on Facebook - if you see this and you’re not in there, come join us.