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22nd Jan 2006 at 3:23 am
do not judge me for my past
it is a part of me, one that i cannot change
although it is entirely shameful, I atone for I did
for what I have done
and the reasons I did it
my past is a part of me, one which explains me
explains who I am
and why I am how I am
it may be wrong, but it is my past
and nothing can be done to change it
it is from my past the present exists
it is what made to who I am
if I had a different past, i would be different
it will affect my future
and my vew on life
such is the nature of my past
you may not understand why i did it
or even exactly what I have done
but that does not matter
what's important is that I apologise
I seek your forgiveness
for my past may be set in stone
but it is how i got here
the past is what led me to you
{and if that made sense, yeah go me, I can do poetry, thats another thing of the to do list}
it is a part of me, one that i cannot change
although it is entirely shameful, I atone for I did
for what I have done
and the reasons I did it
my past is a part of me, one which explains me
explains who I am
and why I am how I am
it may be wrong, but it is my past
and nothing can be done to change it
it is from my past the present exists
it is what made to who I am
if I had a different past, i would be different
it will affect my future
and my vew on life
such is the nature of my past
you may not understand why i did it
or even exactly what I have done
but that does not matter
what's important is that I apologise
I seek your forgiveness
for my past may be set in stone
but it is how i got here
the past is what led me to you
{and if that made sense, yeah go me, I can do poetry, thats another thing of the to do list}
Edited by Dr Namgge Apr 2006
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23rd Jan 2006 at 7:43 am
I never believed in destiny
it wasone of those things
people use it as an escuse, for when things don't go right
for when they make a wrong turn on the road of life
people used it to hide,
to hide from the fact that it is actually their fualt
I never believed in fate
we all control our own
our future is in the hands of ourselves
not some great deity in the sky
those who curse fate really mean to curse themselves
for making the wrong choices
when things seem unlikely i always thought
that it was just coincidence
things happen
and sometimes it seems unlikely
but that is just one of those things unexplained
merely coincidence
I never thought there was luck
it was just a way of justification
allowing people to pass the buck
and explain the good
it was just what people said
never anything serious
I know now that there is luck
destiny and fate
the things that led me here
that led me to you
these aren't coincidence
these are fate, destiny and luck
and I feel better knowing this
as it means I'm lucky
fate is smiling at me
and my destiny is a good one
for as long as I am with you
{perhaps I should write the inside of Valentines day cards}
it wasone of those things
people use it as an escuse, for when things don't go right
for when they make a wrong turn on the road of life
people used it to hide,
to hide from the fact that it is actually their fualt
I never believed in fate
we all control our own
our future is in the hands of ourselves
not some great deity in the sky
those who curse fate really mean to curse themselves
for making the wrong choices
when things seem unlikely i always thought
that it was just coincidence
things happen
and sometimes it seems unlikely
but that is just one of those things unexplained
merely coincidence
I never thought there was luck
it was just a way of justification
allowing people to pass the buck
and explain the good
it was just what people said
never anything serious
I know now that there is luck
destiny and fate
the things that led me here
that led me to you
these aren't coincidence
these are fate, destiny and luck
and I feel better knowing this
as it means I'm lucky
fate is smiling at me
and my destiny is a good one
for as long as I am with you
{perhaps I should write the inside of Valentines day cards}
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25th Jan 2006 at 6:20 pm
your not here right now
but I still think of you
your driving me crazy
everything is driving me crazy
I can't think of anything else
just you
I hate our predicament
I hate everything about it
I even hate you for it
because I love you so much
but it's because we cant do anything,
that I feel this hate
this hate which I feel,
hurts more than you think
every bad thing in life comes flooding back
haunting me, disturbing me
and all I can think of is you
why did I fall for you,
we never even met before
I hate destiny, i hate what she has done to me
made me look the fool
we are here now
cursed by fate
so madly in love, yet unable to deal with it
I feel worse right now,
than at any point in my life
so I write this poem,
and I will probably write a thousand more
as they help me feel better,
about myself, and everything
so I write these words so that you know,
what I feel inside
and I hope that destiny see's them
and regrets her choices
as loving you is ruining me
but I still think of you
your driving me crazy
everything is driving me crazy
I can't think of anything else
just you
I hate our predicament
I hate everything about it
I even hate you for it
because I love you so much
but it's because we cant do anything,
that I feel this hate
this hate which I feel,
hurts more than you think
every bad thing in life comes flooding back
haunting me, disturbing me
and all I can think of is you
why did I fall for you,
we never even met before
I hate destiny, i hate what she has done to me
made me look the fool
we are here now
cursed by fate
so madly in love, yet unable to deal with it
I feel worse right now,
than at any point in my life
so I write this poem,
and I will probably write a thousand more
as they help me feel better,
about myself, and everything
so I write these words so that you know,
what I feel inside
and I hope that destiny see's them
and regrets her choices
as loving you is ruining me
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
25th Jan 2006 at 6:32 pm
the time we share is magical
I never want it to end
and I know that you feel the same
the love we feel
is the strongest thing I have ever felt
yet it destroys me from inside
the way I feel
and the way you do
is proof that happiness is possible
and yet when we are apart
it all goes
and we return to our bitter twisted selves
we opened up to each other
'fessed all of our secrets
and we each became each other's secrets
sharing it helped
so i thought
but I realise now it made it worse
it was after then
that I fell for you
and the something happened with you
talking all day
and all through the night
always makes me happy, but it ends
the pain I feel as it ends
is the worst of all
as it means that we are to be apart
and although i know
that you will return
the pain it causes hurts so bad
I cant tell anyone about you
they wouldn't understand
that your in the same boat makes the problem worse
I don't have the solution
and neither do you
so our situation can only worsen
and although we are yet to meet
you've already got my heart
you've gone and swept me off my feet
like a hit from cupids dart
I log on just to hear you speak
and I hate that I do
it makes me feel physically week
knowing that I love you
I never want it to end
and I know that you feel the same
the love we feel
is the strongest thing I have ever felt
yet it destroys me from inside
the way I feel
and the way you do
is proof that happiness is possible
and yet when we are apart
it all goes
and we return to our bitter twisted selves
we opened up to each other
'fessed all of our secrets
and we each became each other's secrets
sharing it helped
so i thought
but I realise now it made it worse
it was after then
that I fell for you
and the something happened with you
talking all day
and all through the night
always makes me happy, but it ends
the pain I feel as it ends
is the worst of all
as it means that we are to be apart
and although i know
that you will return
the pain it causes hurts so bad
I cant tell anyone about you
they wouldn't understand
that your in the same boat makes the problem worse
I don't have the solution
and neither do you
so our situation can only worsen
and although we are yet to meet
you've already got my heart
you've gone and swept me off my feet
like a hit from cupids dart
I log on just to hear you speak
and I hate that I do
it makes me feel physically week
knowing that I love you
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
27th Jan 2006 at 2:42 pm
no
I don't need to
I need to run
run away
get out
go as far as I can
get outta here
to where it is better
where it's calm
free from the Chaos
back to the start
away from the mess
just run
run
as fast as I can
faster than that
til I can't stop
run
pound my feet
til they blister
keep runnin'
get away
go so fast
get dizzy from speed
keep goin'
til you feel you cant go on
and then continue
further onwards
you'll know when your there
til then head forward
to the end
and when your there
stop
stop and look
to the start
see it
enjoy it
know that you have cleared it
as you look back
you'll see it
and you'll see how small it is
and you'll wonder why you ran
I don't need to
I need to run
run away
get out
go as far as I can
get outta here
to where it is better
where it's calm
free from the Chaos
back to the start
away from the mess
just run
run
as fast as I can
faster than that
til I can't stop
run
pound my feet
til they blister
keep runnin'
get away
go so fast
get dizzy from speed
keep goin'
til you feel you cant go on
and then continue
further onwards
you'll know when your there
til then head forward
to the end
and when your there
stop
stop and look
to the start
see it
enjoy it
know that you have cleared it
as you look back
you'll see it
and you'll see how small it is
and you'll wonder why you ran
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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28th Jan 2006 at 10:59 pm
Mornin' Guv'
hello....i'm scared as this is my first post ....so plz don't bite me!! i like these alot, the first couple are interesting cuz they portray the same idea in different ways, the idea of loving some1 you've never met...that may just be how i'm seeing it though *is quiet*
That last one though i really REALLY like, i doubt that counts for much though seeing as i'm a complete munchkin. It appeals as one of those things were you just need to say words but you don't know what for or why, so you shout and scream until you forget what it is.... never thought of it as running though....ok i really will shut up now
That last one though i really REALLY like, i doubt that counts for much though seeing as i'm a complete munchkin. It appeals as one of those things were you just need to say words but you don't know what for or why, so you shout and scream until you forget what it is.... never thought of it as running though....ok i really will shut up now
If you don't like it...STOP LOOKING YOU NOSEY B*ST*RD
I'll Be A Lot of Things But Never Yours
I'll Be A Lot of Things But Never Yours
28th Jan 2006 at 11:14 pm
wow, a fan, I never wrote these to get fan's, just to get out all the emotions I have
the first one is actually about explaining your past though
as for the running one, the idea of that, came from a discussion about the idea of escaping your problems, once you get further away and distance from them, they become trivial
I'm glad you liked them, although they were never written to be liked, more to let out my feelings
the first one is actually about explaining your past though
as for the running one, the idea of that, came from a discussion about the idea of escaping your problems, once you get further away and distance from them, they become trivial
I'm glad you liked them, although they were never written to be liked, more to let out my feelings
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
28th Jan 2006 at 11:38 pm
Mornin' Guv'
thats what creavity is all about though right, a realise mine tends to be jumping on a bike and goin somewhere i never been before so i can take pictures until i feel better. maybe it can be a good thing to know that people agree with how you feel, and understand at least a little bit what the fef you're talking about!! *runs away*
If you don't like it...STOP LOOKING YOU NOSEY B*ST*RD
I'll Be A Lot of Things But Never Yours
I'll Be A Lot of Things But Never Yours
29th Jan 2006 at 8:45 am
how long have I been writing Poetry? err, the first poem on this page is my first ever poem I wrote, other than one which I wrote back in year 8 for English, it wasn't very good, yet ended up in one of those books were they take aload of schoolkids poems bundle them together and then try to get the parents to buy them.
I never really saw myself as a poet, never got poetry at school, I just began writing the first one at about three in the morning (hence the topics title and why the first one is so gramatically incorrect)
I'll admit I am trying to write a book, a work of fiction, so some of that transferred over
as for the haphazardness? well I'm not very good a rhyming things, and it's hard to stick to a rhythm if you type to music, as I find myself doing (actually I'm doing it now), you can analyse these as much or as little as you want, take them at face value, or read into them to what you think is their, that is your choice,
also, I tend to write it straight down in the response bit of the forum, never thinking too much about what I'm saying, and just seeing where it goes, usually the only bit that comes to mind, is the end, the rest is pure spontanaity
if I had to pick a favourite of the bunch, it'd probably be the running one, but some of the metaphores from that came from Sonic, you may not know how but they do (which is the reason for the intentional capital 'C' in chaos), but like I sadi, interpret what you want from them, poems always mean different things to different people at different times
keep watching and perhaps some new ones might appear soon, it all dpends if something gives me inspiration
I never really saw myself as a poet, never got poetry at school, I just began writing the first one at about three in the morning (hence the topics title and why the first one is so gramatically incorrect)
I'll admit I am trying to write a book, a work of fiction, so some of that transferred over
as for the haphazardness? well I'm not very good a rhyming things, and it's hard to stick to a rhythm if you type to music, as I find myself doing (actually I'm doing it now), you can analyse these as much or as little as you want, take them at face value, or read into them to what you think is their, that is your choice,
also, I tend to write it straight down in the response bit of the forum, never thinking too much about what I'm saying, and just seeing where it goes, usually the only bit that comes to mind, is the end, the rest is pure spontanaity
if I had to pick a favourite of the bunch, it'd probably be the running one, but some of the metaphores from that came from Sonic, you may not know how but they do (which is the reason for the intentional capital 'C' in chaos), but like I sadi, interpret what you want from them, poems always mean different things to different people at different times
keep watching and perhaps some new ones might appear soon, it all dpends if something gives me inspiration
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
29th Jan 2006 at 7:19 pm
failure
your not the greatest
their is always someone better
so why can't you live with it?
you try and try
but it gets you nowhere
but something inside urges you on
you practice, train and improve
but it's still not enough
and you begin to lose hope
as your not the best
but you cant settle for it
you try again
one more attempt
to see if you really are the greatest
aand yet again you crash and burn
gutted you lose the last of your hope
you return to normal
you settle
accept defeat and continue
carry on being mediocre
it stops bothering you
and then you see them
your rivals
they are old dishreveled and a mess
still trying to outdo one another
and you are there,
not the best but still good
you did beat them
just not the way you had hoped to
you succeeded where they failed
as you admitted defeat, at got on with life
while they continued,
blinded to it
still wanting to be the best
and still failing
your not the greatest
their is always someone better
so why can't you live with it?
you try and try
but it gets you nowhere
but something inside urges you on
you practice, train and improve
but it's still not enough
and you begin to lose hope
as your not the best
but you cant settle for it
you try again
one more attempt
to see if you really are the greatest
aand yet again you crash and burn
gutted you lose the last of your hope
you return to normal
you settle
accept defeat and continue
carry on being mediocre
it stops bothering you
and then you see them
your rivals
they are old dishreveled and a mess
still trying to outdo one another
and you are there,
not the best but still good
you did beat them
just not the way you had hoped to
you succeeded where they failed
as you admitted defeat, at got on with life
while they continued,
blinded to it
still wanting to be the best
and still failing
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
Quote:
You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
29th Jan 2006 at 7:53 pm
Mornin' Guv'
tres coolies...plz don't flatter yourself into thinking i'm a fan though, i merely signed up yesterday and yours was the first bunch i looked at. lol. but i do quite like what you've written i'm not just being random ...well i am but...oh crap must be quiet now
If you don't like it...STOP LOOKING YOU NOSEY B*ST*RD
I'll Be A Lot of Things But Never Yours
I'll Be A Lot of Things But Never Yours
29th Jan 2006 at 7:56 pm
don't silence yourself for me, go ahead, rip my work to shreds if you want, I don't want the praise, this is all just a release for me, so it won't bother me. look I'll do it too my spelling is terrible in these, and why haven't I titled any of them ('cept the last one) that can't exactly be hard to do!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
29th Jan 2006 at 8:00 pm
Mornin' Guv'
don't worry it isn't for your sake i am prone to hyperactivity so i talk a lot and then confuse my self. random urge to write something linking roses to memories but that's easier said than done
If you don't like it...STOP LOOKING YOU NOSEY B*ST*RD
I'll Be A Lot of Things But Never Yours
I'll Be A Lot of Things But Never Yours
29th Jan 2006 at 8:04 pm
try using some of the other boards for that
spam is especially useful
full of crap, but useful
as you can say whatever
and not have to worry about it making sense
or even really being relavant
as no-one seems to care
it is called spam after all
{would you look at that a mini-poem answer, I amuse myself sometimes
)
spam is especially useful
full of crap, but useful
as you can say whatever
and not have to worry about it making sense
or even really being relavant
as no-one seems to care
it is called spam after all
{would you look at that a mini-poem answer, I amuse myself sometimes
)
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
29th Jan 2006 at 8:52 pm
Lady Lobschter
I'm worried I helped inspire that.
It's good though.
It's good though.
self-confessed spamaholic
about as useful as trying to put the pin back in the grenade
Me and Matt - King and Queen lobster spam team!!
about as useful as trying to put the pin back in the grenade
Me and Matt - King and Queen lobster spam team!!
29th Jan 2006 at 10:54 pm
waiting
and so I wait
'it will come' I teel myself
trying to make the delay easier
but it doesn't help
as I wait
anxious for what it brings
who knows what will come
perhaps it will be good
perhaps not
I just need to wait for it
'is that clock working?'
I wonder, as it sits there
seemingly motionless
yet still working
ticking away at me
while I wait
I keep waiting
still no sign
I just need some patience
'it will occur
it is guaranteed'
they tell me
I continue to wait
the wait is dull
nothing to do here
only the wait
just need to keep the mind busy
stop myself thinking 'bout it
but nothing works
I still wait today
it eats at me
as I sit their waiting
waiting for the time
waiting for that moment
and I grow sadder everyday
as I know it won't come
and so I wait
'it will come' I teel myself
trying to make the delay easier
but it doesn't help
as I wait
anxious for what it brings
who knows what will come
perhaps it will be good
perhaps not
I just need to wait for it
'is that clock working?'
I wonder, as it sits there
seemingly motionless
yet still working
ticking away at me
while I wait
I keep waiting
still no sign
I just need some patience
'it will occur
it is guaranteed'
they tell me
I continue to wait
the wait is dull
nothing to do here
only the wait
just need to keep the mind busy
stop myself thinking 'bout it
but nothing works
I still wait today
it eats at me
as I sit their waiting
waiting for the time
waiting for that moment
and I grow sadder everyday
as I know it won't come
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
31st Jan 2006 at 11:57 am
If I told you about it,
you wouldn't believe me
you'd shake your head and laugh
as it's not the sort of thing that happens
not ever, let alone to me
and yet it's true
I really am in this situation
and I have no clue
about what to do
so i continue onwards
lost and confused
I can't tell you though
even though you'd know
you would understand
and tell me what I should do
but I don't know this of you
despite the fact your my best friend
you have to be left in the dark
like the rest
blissfully unaware
and in full view of my sufferring
I don't mean to do this
I don't want you to see me like this
but I can't confide in you
my situation is so bizarre
so odd, and unusual
that I don't think even you'd understand
only I seem to grasp the full extent of it
but I am yet to tell anyone
as I'm too scared, scared of opening up
I know you, you'd help
so why cant I say it
you'd keep it under lock and key
like everything else I have said
everything I ever said
and yet I don't trust you
my best friend
this only seems to make it worse
you need to know
as you can help
I think
but, what if you cant
what if it's for nothing
then what
I won't tell you
I just cant
it eats me up inside
trying to tell you
but you must know
it's probably obvious anyway
if I could say it I would
you'd be the first to hear it
and you'd be the only one to
no-one else would be told
and it would help me get over it
get over the problem
yet I cannot
as you don't understand
no-one else does either
except for one person
she's the only one who does
and she is the problem
the very fact that I love her
and she feels the same
is what is causing this
so why can't you know this?
you wouldn't believe me
you'd shake your head and laugh
as it's not the sort of thing that happens
not ever, let alone to me
and yet it's true
I really am in this situation
and I have no clue
about what to do
so i continue onwards
lost and confused
I can't tell you though
even though you'd know
you would understand
and tell me what I should do
but I don't know this of you
despite the fact your my best friend
you have to be left in the dark
like the rest
blissfully unaware
and in full view of my sufferring
I don't mean to do this
I don't want you to see me like this
but I can't confide in you
my situation is so bizarre
so odd, and unusual
that I don't think even you'd understand
only I seem to grasp the full extent of it
but I am yet to tell anyone
as I'm too scared, scared of opening up
I know you, you'd help
so why cant I say it
you'd keep it under lock and key
like everything else I have said
everything I ever said
and yet I don't trust you
my best friend
this only seems to make it worse
you need to know
as you can help
I think
but, what if you cant
what if it's for nothing
then what
I won't tell you
I just cant
it eats me up inside
trying to tell you
but you must know
it's probably obvious anyway
if I could say it I would
you'd be the first to hear it
and you'd be the only one to
no-one else would be told
and it would help me get over it
get over the problem
yet I cannot
as you don't understand
no-one else does either
except for one person
she's the only one who does
and she is the problem
the very fact that I love her
and she feels the same
is what is causing this
so why can't you know this?
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1st Feb 2006 at 12:11 am
the end
and that was that
it had ended
were all still in shock over it
took us all by surprise
I never saw that one coming
looking back, the signs were their
we all knew really that it was innevitable
but still,
it doesn't make it any less shocking
we still cling
to the last of it
all our memories
and we all hold them dearly
as that is all that is left
time passes onward
things get easier
and we continue with our lives
it still plays in our minds
but it no longer controls us
we grow older
new memories are born
but we still remember
as we always will
even if it's not as much as we used to
time takes it's toll on us
our numbers grow fewer with each year
and the memory of it grows weaker
with each resulting death
til there is just one
and then he dies
there is no-one left
the memory is gone
no-one lives to remember
but that does not matter
as we are all in heaven
reunited at long last
as our deaths brought us back together
{althouugh these are all emotion based, writing this actually brought me to tears, all this was inspired by the Death thread}
and that was that
it had ended
were all still in shock over it
took us all by surprise
I never saw that one coming
looking back, the signs were their
we all knew really that it was innevitable
but still,
it doesn't make it any less shocking
we still cling
to the last of it
all our memories
and we all hold them dearly
as that is all that is left
time passes onward
things get easier
and we continue with our lives
it still plays in our minds
but it no longer controls us
we grow older
new memories are born
but we still remember
as we always will
even if it's not as much as we used to
time takes it's toll on us
our numbers grow fewer with each year
and the memory of it grows weaker
with each resulting death
til there is just one
and then he dies
there is no-one left
the memory is gone
no-one lives to remember
but that does not matter
as we are all in heaven
reunited at long last
as our deaths brought us back together
{althouugh these are all emotion based, writing this actually brought me to tears, all this was inspired by the Death thread}
Edited by Dr Namgge Feb 2006
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1st Feb 2006 at 11:03 am
equality, tolerance & logic
Very well written indeed.
Now is that salary pre or post tax?
100% of Earth's population agrees with the following statement.
"Forces should be spending their time catching rapists and murders and not worry about piracy theft."
100% of Earth's population agrees with the following statement.
"Forces should be spending their time catching rapists and murders and not worry about piracy theft."
1st Feb 2006 at 8:28 pm
why
why did I do that
it's probably the dumbest thing I ever did
dumbest I ever will do too
why, why did I?
such a mistake
I should never have said it
god I wish I could take it back
turn back time
and stop it, stop myself
from making an a*s of myself
i'm an idiot
you didn't want to hear that
I should've kept quiet
ignorance is bliss
why did I even tell you?
you won't accept this
you won't want to hear it
it's not good for you to know that
how could it be good for anyone?
no-one would want to hear that
you must understand
it was a mistake
I never meant to tell you this
but the fact that you understand
you accept what I said
and you don't think less of me for it
makes me realise
that it wasn't a mistake
as it helped you realise
the 'hows' and the 'whys'
of every mistake I had ever made
why did I do that
it's probably the dumbest thing I ever did
dumbest I ever will do too
why, why did I?
such a mistake
I should never have said it
god I wish I could take it back
turn back time
and stop it, stop myself
from making an a*s of myself
i'm an idiot
you didn't want to hear that
I should've kept quiet
ignorance is bliss
why did I even tell you?
you won't accept this
you won't want to hear it
it's not good for you to know that
how could it be good for anyone?
no-one would want to hear that
you must understand
it was a mistake
I never meant to tell you this
but the fact that you understand
you accept what I said
and you don't think less of me for it
makes me realise
that it wasn't a mistake
as it helped you realise
the 'hows' and the 'whys'
of every mistake I had ever made
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
Quote:
I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
Quote:
You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
2nd Feb 2006 at 7:02 pm
I didn't get you flowers
they wouldn't have kept
chocolates were too much of a cliche
and I thought about a card
but it wasn't me
I could've made something
but I have no skill for that
so instead I got you this
it didn't cost the world
but I know you'll like it
and that is what matters
if I could, I'd give you the world
that is how much you mean to me
but I cant
so I give you this instead
and I hope that you get it
and get why I gave it to you
it's not the expected
something more unusual
but when you see it
you will love it
as much as you love me
and I cant wait
to see your face
when you open it
and realise why
and see how special this is
but remember this
this is nothing
just a token of love
and although it is not the usual
or the expected
it will allow you to see me clearer
and will help me to see you too
they wouldn't have kept
chocolates were too much of a cliche
and I thought about a card
but it wasn't me
I could've made something
but I have no skill for that
so instead I got you this
it didn't cost the world
but I know you'll like it
and that is what matters
if I could, I'd give you the world
that is how much you mean to me
but I cant
so I give you this instead
and I hope that you get it
and get why I gave it to you
it's not the expected
something more unusual
but when you see it
you will love it
as much as you love me
and I cant wait
to see your face
when you open it
and realise why
and see how special this is
but remember this
this is nothing
just a token of love
and although it is not the usual
or the expected
it will allow you to see me clearer
and will help me to see you too
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
3rd Feb 2006 at 6:44 pm
'work damnit work
I spent my money on you
my hard earned money'
and yet it sits their
stubbornly refusing my request
doing as it pleases
doing nothing
I try again
checking everything
still nothing
I check everything again
nothing happens
it doesn't want to work
I rack my brain
try to think of a solution
but it just sits their
not doing it's job
refusing to follow orders
it is insubordinate
disloyal and treachourous
it just sits their
good for nothing piece of junk
doesn't do what it's supposed to
doesn't do anything
except waste space
and anger me
frustration sets in
I begin to yell at it
screaming at the top of my lungs
hitting it
as hard as I can
yet it ignores me
it cannot hear me
but the screaming is not for it
it is for me
because I am not doing it correctly
and I know that the problem is my own
as I don't know what I am doing
and have to much pride to seek help
I don't want to admit my own stupidity to another
I spent my money on you
my hard earned money'
and yet it sits their
stubbornly refusing my request
doing as it pleases
doing nothing
I try again
checking everything
still nothing
I check everything again
nothing happens
it doesn't want to work
I rack my brain
try to think of a solution
but it just sits their
not doing it's job
refusing to follow orders
it is insubordinate
disloyal and treachourous
it just sits their
good for nothing piece of junk
doesn't do what it's supposed to
doesn't do anything
except waste space
and anger me
frustration sets in
I begin to yell at it
screaming at the top of my lungs
hitting it
as hard as I can
yet it ignores me
it cannot hear me
but the screaming is not for it
it is for me
because I am not doing it correctly
and I know that the problem is my own
as I don't know what I am doing
and have to much pride to seek help
I don't want to admit my own stupidity to another
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
Quote:
I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
4th Feb 2006 at 10:59 pm
they don't care really
none of them do
they just ask out of politeness
why else would they be so rude
if they cared, they wouldn't be so rude to you
it's because they can
because all you can do is sit their
sit and take it
fighting back only gets you into trouble
so you have to put up with it
and so you sit their
hating them
hating them all, as they annoy you
giving you dumb requests
and asking you stupid questions
they can't accept it
when you say no
even though it's your job to
they start being abusive
threatening you
because you did your job
your customers are jerks
and you hate them all
and yet,
when your in their store
you are one of their customers
and you turn into one of them
and you don't realise just how hard they have it
and it doesn't dawn on you,
that you are just as annoying
as those who annoy you
none of them do
they just ask out of politeness
why else would they be so rude
if they cared, they wouldn't be so rude to you
it's because they can
because all you can do is sit their
sit and take it
fighting back only gets you into trouble
so you have to put up with it
and so you sit their
hating them
hating them all, as they annoy you
giving you dumb requests
and asking you stupid questions
they can't accept it
when you say no
even though it's your job to
they start being abusive
threatening you
because you did your job
your customers are jerks
and you hate them all
and yet,
when your in their store
you are one of their customers
and you turn into one of them
and you don't realise just how hard they have it
and it doesn't dawn on you,
that you are just as annoying
as those who annoy you
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
Quote:
I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
4th Feb 2006 at 11:10 pm
I need out
it's getting to me
always the same thing
never once is it different
they argue over money
and moan about my uselessness
until they get fed up of it
and storm off
I need to go
I don't want to be here
they always ask for stuff
ask for me
never considerring what I want
just what they need in their selfishness
they only want me when they need something
I need a change
it's all the same now
even the routine has become routine
I can second guess it all
how it goes wrong, when it goes wrong
who'll turn up, and what they'll do
it's got tedious
I need a change
it's always the same
I have to be really careful
staying in the shadows
avoiding being seen
fearing what might happen
if I am caught
if they see me
I need to be elsewhere
I need an exit
I'm trapped here
no hopes no expectations
not a single prospect here
no reason for me to be here
not a one
only one thing kept me here
it no longer affects me
it dissappeared
it has gone
as has my interest in being here
I don't want to be here
their is nothing for me
but their is only one thing
one thing in my life right now
and that is you
if only you were here
I could live with it
it wouldn't bother me
I'd put up with all this
if it meant that we were together
I could bear all this, with you by my side
it's getting to me
always the same thing
never once is it different
they argue over money
and moan about my uselessness
until they get fed up of it
and storm off
I need to go
I don't want to be here
they always ask for stuff
ask for me
never considerring what I want
just what they need in their selfishness
they only want me when they need something
I need a change
it's all the same now
even the routine has become routine
I can second guess it all
how it goes wrong, when it goes wrong
who'll turn up, and what they'll do
it's got tedious
I need a change
it's always the same
I have to be really careful
staying in the shadows
avoiding being seen
fearing what might happen
if I am caught
if they see me
I need to be elsewhere
I need an exit
I'm trapped here
no hopes no expectations
not a single prospect here
no reason for me to be here
not a one
only one thing kept me here
it no longer affects me
it dissappeared
it has gone
as has my interest in being here
I don't want to be here
their is nothing for me
but their is only one thing
one thing in my life right now
and that is you
if only you were here
I could live with it
it wouldn't bother me
I'd put up with all this
if it meant that we were together
I could bear all this, with you by my side
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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5th Feb 2006 at 9:16 pm
it tough
everthing looks so difficult from here
there really isn't much hope
I don't know if I'll make it
I don't think i can succeed
I must continue
I won't be beat
I don't want to fail
but it's tough
I must keep going
I cant see the end
this could take an age
I don't think i'll survive
I'm beggining to lose hope
but I mus try
I couldn't live with myself if I didn't
onwards i go
towards my goal
it's till far away
and I don't know how far it is
and I don't know how long it'll take
but I must continue
if I don't make it...
I cant think like that
I must stay focused
get to the end
reach the target
and prove it to myself
I can do this
I will get to the end
I will succeed
they won't beat me
I will succeed
and then it'll improve
it will all be better
once I reach the end
til then I go
onward I march
forward to my success
regardless of the failure I encounter on the way
everthing looks so difficult from here
there really isn't much hope
I don't know if I'll make it
I don't think i can succeed
I must continue
I won't be beat
I don't want to fail
but it's tough
I must keep going
I cant see the end
this could take an age
I don't think i'll survive
I'm beggining to lose hope
but I mus try
I couldn't live with myself if I didn't
onwards i go
towards my goal
it's till far away
and I don't know how far it is
and I don't know how long it'll take
but I must continue
if I don't make it...
I cant think like that
I must stay focused
get to the end
reach the target
and prove it to myself
I can do this
I will get to the end
I will succeed
they won't beat me
I will succeed
and then it'll improve
it will all be better
once I reach the end
til then I go
onward I march
forward to my success
regardless of the failure I encounter on the way
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8th Feb 2006 at 1:28 pm
Lord Sebastian Flyte.The one in white.
I love the title of this thread it makes me think of Spike Milligan who is also very funny!
I haven't been manicial all these years I have been in love! It is the exact same dreadful feeling.
8th Feb 2006 at 2:28 pm
Lady Lobschter
My favourite Spike Milligan poem:
There are holes in the sky
Where the rain gets in
But they're ever so small
That's why rain is thin.
Yeah, I'm that one with the compulsive book
There are holes in the sky
Where the rain gets in
But they're ever so small
That's why rain is thin.
Yeah, I'm that one with the compulsive book
self-confessed spamaholic
about as useful as trying to put the pin back in the grenade
Me and Matt - King and Queen lobster spam team!!
about as useful as trying to put the pin back in the grenade
Me and Matt - King and Queen lobster spam team!!
9th Feb 2006 at 10:11 pm
he sits their
cold uncaring emotionless
he has no need for emotion
they serve no purpose
just a distraction
best left ignored
he watches them
they all feel the sorrow, the pain
he decides this is bad
and decides to stay empty
not feeling
not caring
he watches further
they become happy
joy, relief, even love
yet he sits their
he knows how good it is
but he can't bring him to it
he doesn't want the bad
so he sits
sits and waits
time passes
and he continues
not feeling
not caring
people ask
"why are you so cold?"
he does not answer
he knows they wouldn't accept
they cant understand
the emotions they posses blind them
so he feels nothing
remains empty
and the world passes him by
he sits their
watching, observing, looking
but never participates
stays distant
and yet he doesn't realise this
he is feeling things too
he feels empty
the lack of emotion
makes him feel without
and he feels sad
as he is aware of this fact
but won't bring himself to feel it
cold uncaring emotionless
he has no need for emotion
they serve no purpose
just a distraction
best left ignored
he watches them
they all feel the sorrow, the pain
he decides this is bad
and decides to stay empty
not feeling
not caring
he watches further
they become happy
joy, relief, even love
yet he sits their
he knows how good it is
but he can't bring him to it
he doesn't want the bad
so he sits
sits and waits
time passes
and he continues
not feeling
not caring
people ask
"why are you so cold?"
he does not answer
he knows they wouldn't accept
they cant understand
the emotions they posses blind them
so he feels nothing
remains empty
and the world passes him by
he sits their
watching, observing, looking
but never participates
stays distant
and yet he doesn't realise this
he is feeling things too
he feels empty
the lack of emotion
makes him feel without
and he feels sad
as he is aware of this fact
but won't bring himself to feel it
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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10th Feb 2006 at 7:40 pm
The Journey
a thousand roads stand before me
and i've walked from a thousand to here
still I have to make the choice
which road do I take?
none of them seem diferrent
they all appear the same
I don't remember how I got here
or even where I am
I might've been here before
I may be back again
but that doesn't matter
i pick my road, and walk down
cars pass me, the drivers unaware
not one of them stops
they all go
in all directions around me
as i am not of importance
a couple stop to let me cross
but then I still have the choice
which road do I go down?
they still look the same
even though they are not
I have wanderred for so long
I can't remember were was the start
or where i am headed
all i know is I am not their
I will know when I am their
something will tell me so
I keep walking, ever forward
not aware at all
I am going in circles
but I do not notice
as everything is the same
it is impossible to tell
then for no reason I stop
I sit down
and look
that's when i see it
and it hits me
I never left at all
I was here all along
and it was where I was headed to
a thousand roads stand before me
and i've walked from a thousand to here
still I have to make the choice
which road do I take?
none of them seem diferrent
they all appear the same
I don't remember how I got here
or even where I am
I might've been here before
I may be back again
but that doesn't matter
i pick my road, and walk down
cars pass me, the drivers unaware
not one of them stops
they all go
in all directions around me
as i am not of importance
a couple stop to let me cross
but then I still have the choice
which road do I go down?
they still look the same
even though they are not
I have wanderred for so long
I can't remember were was the start
or where i am headed
all i know is I am not their
I will know when I am their
something will tell me so
I keep walking, ever forward
not aware at all
I am going in circles
but I do not notice
as everything is the same
it is impossible to tell
then for no reason I stop
I sit down
and look
that's when i see it
and it hits me
I never left at all
I was here all along
and it was where I was headed to
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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12th Feb 2006 at 1:13 am
things look different
in the dark of the night
it changes everything
shadows lay all around
encrouching you in their darkness
illuminated by the street lights
otherwise invisible to all
not their
just a figment in someones mind
a ghost in your own world
everything is dark
tainted in the orange glow of the lamps
only the darkness around
nothing else
paranoia sweeps in
what could be their
your pace quickens
into the fullest of the dark
no light here
anything could be here
yet you aren't concerned
as they wouldn't see you either
you are as clear as they are
and you know this
the dark of the night is so much better
than the light of the day
as in the night your mind draws up fantasies
what could be around each corner
but in the light
you are surrounded by it
you can see it all
and you are aware
of just how dark the world really is
in the dark of the night
it changes everything
shadows lay all around
encrouching you in their darkness
illuminated by the street lights
otherwise invisible to all
not their
just a figment in someones mind
a ghost in your own world
everything is dark
tainted in the orange glow of the lamps
only the darkness around
nothing else
paranoia sweeps in
what could be their
your pace quickens
into the fullest of the dark
no light here
anything could be here
yet you aren't concerned
as they wouldn't see you either
you are as clear as they are
and you know this
the dark of the night is so much better
than the light of the day
as in the night your mind draws up fantasies
what could be around each corner
but in the light
you are surrounded by it
you can see it all
and you are aware
of just how dark the world really is
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
Quote:
I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
Quote:
You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
13th Feb 2006 at 10:28 am
how dare you do such a thing
you childish little...
I should do something about you for it
but I cant
I cant stop you
I'm not strong enough to
I don't know how
so you continue
mocking me
and you may not realise it
but your words hurt
they hurt me inside
hurt more than any violence
I don't think you even realise
that what you said
and then what you did
has offended me
and unless you read this
you won't
as i cant say anything
who could I say it to?
okay, so maybe I am annoying
maybe I am a prick sometimes
that's not justification
for how you have offended me
I know I can be irritating
but I don't mean to
it just happens
and I hate myself for when it does
I cant change the past
but I can change the future
so lets wipe the slate clean
and start over
fresh starts all around
and forget all up to this
and perhaps then
you might be able to realise
that even though i annoy
what you have done
has annoyed me more
than i could possibly ever annoy you
{this one is for JoeyJoJoel, and the fact that he had to be so childish, when I was merely having a little fun}
you childish little...
I should do something about you for it
but I cant
I cant stop you
I'm not strong enough to
I don't know how
so you continue
mocking me
and you may not realise it
but your words hurt
they hurt me inside
hurt more than any violence
I don't think you even realise
that what you said
and then what you did
has offended me
and unless you read this
you won't
as i cant say anything
who could I say it to?
okay, so maybe I am annoying
maybe I am a prick sometimes
that's not justification
for how you have offended me
I know I can be irritating
but I don't mean to
it just happens
and I hate myself for when it does
I cant change the past
but I can change the future
so lets wipe the slate clean
and start over
fresh starts all around
and forget all up to this
and perhaps then
you might be able to realise
that even though i annoy
what you have done
has annoyed me more
than i could possibly ever annoy you
{this one is for JoeyJoJoel, and the fact that he had to be so childish, when I was merely having a little fun}
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13th Feb 2006 at 5:09 pm
Hello Again.
Not all poetry has to ryhme.
"I am such a great big stupid moron, I deserve the Idiot of the Year award".
Other nominees welcome.
Other nominees welcome.
15th Feb 2006 at 11:02 pm
you know what you just said
I am the only one
not in those words
but you said it
you will get over the other one now
it is over for you and him
even if it doesn't seem it
you and him are finished
the only one for me is you
you now feel the same
we are now together
all so loved up
together you and me
were in love
so madly in love
and we know it
it sounds weird to say
that your in love with me
it's weird for me too
as we are still yet to meet
yet, i feel
we have met
we know one another
always have, always will
as weird as this is
it is love
and it is us
we just need to meet
I am the only one
not in those words
but you said it
you will get over the other one now
it is over for you and him
even if it doesn't seem it
you and him are finished
the only one for me is you
you now feel the same
we are now together
all so loved up
together you and me
were in love
so madly in love
and we know it
it sounds weird to say
that your in love with me
it's weird for me too
as we are still yet to meet
yet, i feel
we have met
we know one another
always have, always will
as weird as this is
it is love
and it is us
we just need to meet
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15th Feb 2006 at 11:09 pm
this is fates test for us
she wants to see it true
how strong our love is
so she has seperated us
and left us apart
you are my muse for this
and if I am this poetic
it is because of you
and how you make me feel
I am nothing without you
you inspire me
you tell me something
I give you a purpose in life
I give you reason to be
to exist in life
and I feel the same about you
you are my reason for being
who knows what my life would be
without you in my life
and you have only been in it for two months
but this is my proof
although it is wirlwind
it is my evidence
that we are meant to be
so their is only one thing left
we gotta beat fate
beat her tests
triumph victorious
and I know we can
if you were someone else,
I would fail
but I cant go wrong
as you keep me steady
and with you at my side
we will succeed
and be together
she wants to see it true
how strong our love is
so she has seperated us
and left us apart
you are my muse for this
and if I am this poetic
it is because of you
and how you make me feel
I am nothing without you
you inspire me
you tell me something
I give you a purpose in life
I give you reason to be
to exist in life
and I feel the same about you
you are my reason for being
who knows what my life would be
without you in my life
and you have only been in it for two months
but this is my proof
although it is wirlwind
it is my evidence
that we are meant to be
so their is only one thing left
we gotta beat fate
beat her tests
triumph victorious
and I know we can
if you were someone else,
I would fail
but I cant go wrong
as you keep me steady
and with you at my side
we will succeed
and be together
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
15th Feb 2006 at 11:37 pm
thank you
I owe you everything
you don't realise how yet
but it's because of you
and what you said on Monday
that got me talking to her
and that conversation we had,
it lead her to realise
she finally twigged
what she knew all along
thanks to what you said
and me telling her of it
we began talking about us
and she realsied
and I couldn't be happier
she told me what happend to her last night
it was not good news i thought
but we talked about it
and she muttered something
something important
their is now one less complication
she finally realsied she has no feelings for him
and that i am the only one for her
we are now offcially together
and if it weren't for this conversation
she would've followed her mind
not her heart
and she would've tried to get over me
and failed
but she realised it
she has no feelings for him anymore
and i thank you for this
as you were the one who convinced me of it
I owe you everything
you don't realise how yet
but it's because of you
and what you said on Monday
that got me talking to her
and that conversation we had,
it lead her to realise
she finally twigged
what she knew all along
thanks to what you said
and me telling her of it
we began talking about us
and she realsied
and I couldn't be happier
she told me what happend to her last night
it was not good news i thought
but we talked about it
and she muttered something
something important
their is now one less complication
she finally realsied she has no feelings for him
and that i am the only one for her
we are now offcially together
and if it weren't for this conversation
she would've followed her mind
not her heart
and she would've tried to get over me
and failed
but she realised it
she has no feelings for him anymore
and i thank you for this
as you were the one who convinced me of it
Edited by Dr Namgge Feb 2006
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16th Feb 2006 at 12:00 am
Mutter oh gib mir Kraft
the fate tests us one speaks to me, reminds me how i and Svetlana met and the sperations we had along the way, but always knowing we were for each other
Die Sonne scheint mir aus den Händen
kann verbrennen, kann euch blenden
wenn sie aus den Fäusten bricht
legt sich heiß auf das Gesicht
sie wird heut Nacht nicht untergehen
und die Welt zählt laut bis zehn
kann verbrennen, kann euch blenden
wenn sie aus den Fäusten bricht
legt sich heiß auf das Gesicht
sie wird heut Nacht nicht untergehen
und die Welt zählt laut bis zehn
16th Feb 2006 at 8:42 am
I killed you last night
while you were sleeping
I snuck in
and pulled out the blade
and stabbed you
repeatedly
I watched you die though
I had killed many before
but I always fled
never watched
but I watched you die
I watched you suffer
your eyes said more
far more than your screaming
they told me what you felt
anger, fear, confusion
but you were still calm
it didn't seem to bother you
that you were dieing
such acceptance was lost
I didn't see it possible
but you took it
and you stunned me with this
I felt sorry for you
and mad at myself
I had killed you
your lifeless body laid their
but something else died too that night
I had died
the old me died
I have been reborn
I am a different person now
I see the pain I have caused
I see their sufferrring
but I am stuck
as although I no longer follow that ideal
the fact that I did is stuck with me
and it will stay with me
the one bloodstain I cant wash off
while you were sleeping
I snuck in
and pulled out the blade
and stabbed you
repeatedly
I watched you die though
I had killed many before
but I always fled
never watched
but I watched you die
I watched you suffer
your eyes said more
far more than your screaming
they told me what you felt
anger, fear, confusion
but you were still calm
it didn't seem to bother you
that you were dieing
such acceptance was lost
I didn't see it possible
but you took it
and you stunned me with this
I felt sorry for you
and mad at myself
I had killed you
your lifeless body laid their
but something else died too that night
I had died
the old me died
I have been reborn
I am a different person now
I see the pain I have caused
I see their sufferrring
but I am stuck
as although I no longer follow that ideal
the fact that I did is stuck with me
and it will stay with me
the one bloodstain I cant wash off
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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16th Feb 2006 at 8:51 am
I'm so very sorry
that was the dumbest thing I ever did
why did I think it'd work
it was crazy
completely stupid
like myself
I don't know what to say
I'm an idiot
I can't apologise enough
and i don't deserve to be forgiven
what i did was wrong
and I shouldn't have done it
you trusted me
and I blew that trust
conceiving my stupid plan
I shouldn't have tried it
i feel like sh*te for trying it
and i am so very sorry
I do not ask you to forgive me
I don't deserve that
but I want you to know
the reason I did it
was because I wanted to help
I wanted to help you
as you had helped me
I know it was dumb
I am dumb
and I don't know what to say
but I am sorry
I never meant for this
i never meant to hurt you
and yet you forgive me
yet again I get another chance
I don't deserve it
yet I get it
this time I won't mess up
I promise you this
what did I do
to deserve you as a friend
someone so kind, so caring
that they can take something as bad as that
and overlook it
I don't deserve you
I must be uber lucky
I know I am grovelling
and I still don't fully know if I am forgiven
I never know what to think
you know this
it's what caused this
but I am really sorry it happened
and I guarantee it never will again
as I am too dumb to lose you
I wouldn't cope
{five poems in one night, Jesus, what a farked up night last night was}
that was the dumbest thing I ever did
why did I think it'd work
it was crazy
completely stupid
like myself
I don't know what to say
I'm an idiot
I can't apologise enough
and i don't deserve to be forgiven
what i did was wrong
and I shouldn't have done it
you trusted me
and I blew that trust
conceiving my stupid plan
I shouldn't have tried it
i feel like sh*te for trying it
and i am so very sorry
I do not ask you to forgive me
I don't deserve that
but I want you to know
the reason I did it
was because I wanted to help
I wanted to help you
as you had helped me
I know it was dumb
I am dumb
and I don't know what to say
but I am sorry
I never meant for this
i never meant to hurt you
and yet you forgive me
yet again I get another chance
I don't deserve it
yet I get it
this time I won't mess up
I promise you this
what did I do
to deserve you as a friend
someone so kind, so caring
that they can take something as bad as that
and overlook it
I don't deserve you
I must be uber lucky
I know I am grovelling
and I still don't fully know if I am forgiven
I never know what to think
you know this
it's what caused this
but I am really sorry it happened
and I guarantee it never will again
as I am too dumb to lose you
I wouldn't cope
{five poems in one night, Jesus, what a farked up night last night was}
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17th Feb 2006 at 9:40 pm
I know so much
so many secrets
so many lies
I don't know anymore
what I need to know
I am confided in
I am told stuff
stuff no-one will tell anyone else
and expected to hold it
forever sometimes
I have the emotional baggage of others
it is very heavy
and no-one can help me carry it
they won't allow me too
and then they moan
when i cant cope
with all they have given me
so I am left here
carrying their bags
and struggling
as their is no-one to help me with mine
as i do not ask for help
then they begin to ask the questions
the why's? start
and I cant tell them
as I don't want their help
I don't want them to know
so they add to my load
the amount of baggage I have
and I cant share theirs
as it breaks their trust
and I cannot share mine
as i cannot trust them with it
so many secrets
so many lies
I don't know anymore
what I need to know
I am confided in
I am told stuff
stuff no-one will tell anyone else
and expected to hold it
forever sometimes
I have the emotional baggage of others
it is very heavy
and no-one can help me carry it
they won't allow me too
and then they moan
when i cant cope
with all they have given me
so I am left here
carrying their bags
and struggling
as their is no-one to help me with mine
as i do not ask for help
then they begin to ask the questions
the why's? start
and I cant tell them
as I don't want their help
I don't want them to know
so they add to my load
the amount of baggage I have
and I cant share theirs
as it breaks their trust
and I cannot share mine
as i cannot trust them with it
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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17th Feb 2006 at 9:59 pm
I need you here
you would've stopped me
you would've kept it okay
I wouldn't have gotten so messed up
I would still be fine
if you were here
I don't know what to say anymore
I can't say nothing
I can't not though
I can't do anything
I don't know
but you would guide me
I am so confused
I am scared
I'm going to do something I regret
because i can't be stopped
as only you could stop me
I will do something I regret
something you might even hate me for
as I have no control
you are my control
and you are not here
everything has become messed up
everything is a muddle
all I have done
up to this point
has been bad
I see it now
only you were good
only you were right
everyone asks
I need to be free
I need you
you make me free
you are my control
you make me free
you stop me making a mess
you are all of this and more
their is one thing else that you are
you are not here right now
so you do not know this
you would've stopped me
you would've kept it okay
I wouldn't have gotten so messed up
I would still be fine
if you were here
I don't know what to say anymore
I can't say nothing
I can't not though
I can't do anything
I don't know
but you would guide me
I am so confused
I am scared
I'm going to do something I regret
because i can't be stopped
as only you could stop me
I will do something I regret
something you might even hate me for
as I have no control
you are my control
and you are not here
everything has become messed up
everything is a muddle
all I have done
up to this point
has been bad
I see it now
only you were good
only you were right
everyone asks
I need to be free
I need you
you make me free
you are my control
you make me free
you stop me making a mess
you are all of this and more
their is one thing else that you are
you are not here right now
so you do not know this
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17th Feb 2006 at 10:03 pm
It all comes out
I can't stop it
I cant hold it back
their is too much
it must come out
it must escape
I must free myself of it
free myself of it all
get it out
into the open
so i don't have to deal with it
let it free
give it back
throw it away
how does not matter
only that I do
only that it is gone
get rid of it
all of it
let them sort it out
they must sort it
it is theirs anyway
not mine
but what can I do?
I cant release it
that is not what they want
I was trusted
to keep it caged
I seeked this of them
I wanted it
how can I return what I wanted so much?
I can't stop it
I cant hold it back
their is too much
it must come out
it must escape
I must free myself of it
free myself of it all
get it out
into the open
so i don't have to deal with it
let it free
give it back
throw it away
how does not matter
only that I do
only that it is gone
get rid of it
all of it
let them sort it out
they must sort it
it is theirs anyway
not mine
but what can I do?
I cant release it
that is not what they want
I was trusted
to keep it caged
I seeked this of them
I wanted it
how can I return what I wanted so much?
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18th Feb 2006 at 10:58 pm
I was going to write something
something brilliant, something beutiful
something that would impress everyone
but then I started to write
and the words weren't their
I couldn't write anything
the pen hit the paper
and their was nothing
my fingers, on the keys
still nothing to say
I had so much to say
their was nowhere to start
so their was nothing to add to
and no need for a conclusion
and yet as I sat here
with nothing to say
thoughts swarmed around
but none of them were good enough
they weren't of interest
they were irrelevant
I gave up on it
what was the point
you can't force inspiration
it comes from somewhere else
from your muse
then it hit me
the reason I have nothing
why their is no great poem
is because my muse is gone
and with it
so has my motivation
and my desire for this
something brilliant, something beutiful
something that would impress everyone
but then I started to write
and the words weren't their
I couldn't write anything
the pen hit the paper
and their was nothing
my fingers, on the keys
still nothing to say
I had so much to say
their was nowhere to start
so their was nothing to add to
and no need for a conclusion
and yet as I sat here
with nothing to say
thoughts swarmed around
but none of them were good enough
they weren't of interest
they were irrelevant
I gave up on it
what was the point
you can't force inspiration
it comes from somewhere else
from your muse
then it hit me
the reason I have nothing
why their is no great poem
is because my muse is gone
and with it
so has my motivation
and my desire for this
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19th Feb 2006 at 9:36 am
there are somethings
that I want to tell to everyone
but I can't
they aren't allowed to be known
as I have been told not to
these are big things
yet also little things
dependant on your view
but they are important to me
yet I cannot say
I am forced by those involved
and by myself
to keep it secret
keep it to myself
and I cannot say it
even though I want to
I want to tell
I want everyone to know
but you all cannot
you all must not
doing this won't help it
as you'll be curious
and you'll ask
but know this much
if I could tell
I would've yesterday
as holding all this back
gets tougher
with each person I tell
but I have to hold it in
as I can't be found out
for reason's only I know
that I want to tell to everyone
but I can't
they aren't allowed to be known
as I have been told not to
these are big things
yet also little things
dependant on your view
but they are important to me
yet I cannot say
I am forced by those involved
and by myself
to keep it secret
keep it to myself
and I cannot say it
even though I want to
I want to tell
I want everyone to know
but you all cannot
you all must not
doing this won't help it
as you'll be curious
and you'll ask
but know this much
if I could tell
I would've yesterday
as holding all this back
gets tougher
with each person I tell
but I have to hold it in
as I can't be found out
for reason's only I know
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21st Feb 2006 at 8:48 am
koshinka nothed!
hofinta erwa toin eroc
hofinta wath toin eroc
jeb toin nothed!
ledoc wafic
o shonka deprofs?
eroc deprofs?
liwaku toin remco
dulsha remco ty demox
pobtrad eno ty remco
putna!
putna confuble!
o thrike wafic
toin confuble
id eno ty vaj deprofs?
kinshana twinoph beon
kinsh letro, beon decro
evet, evet hein moof
demox fadulan hein beon,
demox putna confuble
efona predna putna
gwonci efona!
squant hoshina, squant ty!
eno licha deprosic detnam
ty hein eno jush grafubo
eno licha thi enf resuts.
and although you do not understand
what I have just told you
that does not bother me
as I needed, all I ever needed
was to be able to say it
regardless of who understood it
{I've had a couple of people ask me about this poem, and what it is that is actually being said. I would like to point out that their is no meaning to the words within it. it is not encoded, they are not anagrams of words, they are just nonscence, so don't waste your time trying to guess what is not their please}
hofinta erwa toin eroc
hofinta wath toin eroc
jeb toin nothed!
ledoc wafic
o shonka deprofs?
eroc deprofs?
liwaku toin remco
dulsha remco ty demox
pobtrad eno ty remco
putna!
putna confuble!
o thrike wafic
toin confuble
id eno ty vaj deprofs?
kinshana twinoph beon
kinsh letro, beon decro
evet, evet hein moof
demox fadulan hein beon,
demox putna confuble
efona predna putna
gwonci efona!
squant hoshina, squant ty!
eno licha deprosic detnam
ty hein eno jush grafubo
eno licha thi enf resuts.
and although you do not understand
what I have just told you
that does not bother me
as I needed, all I ever needed
was to be able to say it
regardless of who understood it
{I've had a couple of people ask me about this poem, and what it is that is actually being said. I would like to point out that their is no meaning to the words within it. it is not encoded, they are not anagrams of words, they are just nonscence, so don't waste your time trying to guess what is not their please}
Edited by Dr Namgge Feb 2006
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21st Feb 2006 at 12:37 pm
I wash my hands
I am now free of it
if it comes up now
I am not responsible
you may bring it up
and I will talk of it
but I will not bring it into view myself
I'm sick of hearing about it
I have apologised,
I have explained
and I have repeated it over
and over til I am blue
i know it was my fualt
btu I cant go back in time
I admited I was an idiot
and that it was my fault
but we are done now
in my book at least
everything now is repetition
so lets shut up about it
stop talking of it
and while we cant forget
or change it
we must remember that it is done
and move on from it
for if we linger on it
then it will consume us
and wreck what we have
and wreck us inside
so we must move on
unafraid of the past
and the mistakes it contains
to hold onto it
is stupidity
nothing more can be said
so lets move on
rememberring this
but not making it into the issue it once was
time will heal us
but if we keep going in these circles
then the scars will be picked at
and we will die of it
we will have killed ourselves
because we couldn't accept it
I am now free of it
if it comes up now
I am not responsible
you may bring it up
and I will talk of it
but I will not bring it into view myself
I'm sick of hearing about it
I have apologised,
I have explained
and I have repeated it over
and over til I am blue
i know it was my fualt
btu I cant go back in time
I admited I was an idiot
and that it was my fault
but we are done now
in my book at least
everything now is repetition
so lets shut up about it
stop talking of it
and while we cant forget
or change it
we must remember that it is done
and move on from it
for if we linger on it
then it will consume us
and wreck what we have
and wreck us inside
so we must move on
unafraid of the past
and the mistakes it contains
to hold onto it
is stupidity
nothing more can be said
so lets move on
rememberring this
but not making it into the issue it once was
time will heal us
but if we keep going in these circles
then the scars will be picked at
and we will die of it
we will have killed ourselves
because we couldn't accept it
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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21st Feb 2006 at 10:38 pm
I cant't suss you
everyone else is an open book
but your different
I cannot read you
and that frustrates me
everyone else is easy
I can see them
they are obvious
but not you
you are as clear as mud
I cant figure out why either
you have told me motre than enough
yet I see nothing in you
jsut what you say
and how similar it is to me
I think this is why
I cannot read you
as to read you
would be to read myself
and I cannot bring myself to do that
everyone else is an open book
but your different
I cannot read you
and that frustrates me
everyone else is easy
I can see them
they are obvious
but not you
you are as clear as mud
I cant figure out why either
you have told me motre than enough
yet I see nothing in you
jsut what you say
and how similar it is to me
I think this is why
I cannot read you
as to read you
would be to read myself
and I cannot bring myself to do that
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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I don't give a f*ck you f*cking f*ck!
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You should try being me, I injure myself on an hourly basis in stupid and childish ways. I nearly gave myself a heart attack this morning when I stood on a glove.
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Just who was The Brigadier
ratammer:
squeak
Debs|OWA:
o/
IGH:
Wibble
Vel:
*sigh*
Emma:
Hi VR...
Princess Psycho:
Hi I am back in the UK so how are everyone been keeping. Has Fluffy had that little accident yet?
Claire:
SHOUTBOX OF VRRRRRR
Rayanne Graff:
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Lucozade Lover:
Happy New Year!
Crinkle-Cut Beatroot:
Happy new year <3
Claire:
BOXSHOUT
Rayanne Graff:
Happy Easter.
Emma:
So… Posting a new thread is Fission Mailing… so I’m putting this here.
Emma:
I know there aren’t many people looking at this anymore… but I have made the decision to stop paying for the VR hosting and to let the domain lapse.
Emma:
I think it will be going offline around the end of May
Emma:
It’s been almost 10 years since James passed away… and I feel like it’s time.
Emma:
A lot of the regulars can be found on the VR veterans group on Facebook - if you see this and you’re not in there, come join us.
Crinkle-Cut Beatroot:
What's the facebook group called? I couldn't find it...