Zandanius does Poetry

Nutripils

Sweet pill down the throat,
Melt away tightly wound razor wire,
The soul it becomes so sweetly free,
And nakedness becomes erotic again,
The spying eyes fall off the radar,
Assertiveness is possible again,
The razor wire wraps around the soul,
The snake entwines it again,
And the eyes appear as blips again,
More sweet pills down the throat,
The clot is gone,
Sweet thought now pours out,
Words flow from these hands,
And smiles are carved on this happy face,
Magic powders from a new kinda dealer,
Pain killers kill the pain,
But the pain always come back,
Learning to live with pain is living,
Simply living,
The pain is hated,
But brings such strength,
The pain is loved,
The pain is love,
The pain is fear,
More sweet pills please,
The fear is feared,
The fear is dulled,
The love grows stronger,
But anger takes over,
No more does it work,
One pill, two pills, five pills, ten pills,
Then the hospital,
A realisation, the good times are a killer,
And death is not wanted,
Too much beauty lies under the ugliness,
It must be found and cherished.

Just let it in, let it in, let it in.

Oh Mind Be Silent

Your ugly, your ugly,
Your hair looks really bad,
You re so very disgusting,
Your ears are so uneven, your ugly,
They ll see your ugliness,
Your stupid, even though you try not to be,
You know nothing of the world,
They ll smell your fear,
And set upon you,
You are weaker than them,
And they will look upon you,
And they will judge you,
And they will find you wanting,
Everything you will do, will be wrong,
They will hate you,
A message that resonates through all minds.

We are all scared, all scared, so very scared.

The Russian Princess

Golden hair,
Emerald eyes, so piercing,
Such a sweet first love,
Such a painful last goodbye,
Oh Lana a saviour you be,
An introduction to beauty,
So nearly forgotten in the darkness,
Oh Lana smile for me,
Speak of me in a way I thought no one would,
You said I was beautiful,
But could not see your own,
Take my eyes and see yourself,
A goddess of wonder,
A gentle creature of amazing glory,
Words are too feeble to describe you,
Our souls shall forever be entwined,
The orchestra will always play our symphony,
And we shall dance in the snow,
And I ll catch your tears and turn them to diamonds,
When you need me too,
And I ll stand on the mountain with you,
And cry a river of pain that as been inside us all these years,
And the desert below will bloom again,
Our pains we shared will became a beautiful tapestry,
You inspired me to live a better life,
Youve inspired the colours in my mind,
Youve made me see I need to live for love,
Never on a pedestal did I put you,
Because you needed love not worship,
You needed emotion and devotion,
Not obsession,
You made me so angry with you stubbornness,
But thats because you reminded me of my own stupidity,
Oh Lana, all the plans we made,
Such foolish young pups,
Even said wed marry,
Lana, whats that look on your face?
Forgive me for failing you,
I tried to follow you,
I could not walk the ocean,
I just sank,
And the sky begins to bleed,
My tears become lost in the rain,
Like moments lost in time,
Forgive me for not falling out of love with you,
It would of been easier on us both,
But easy is boring,
Id swim through time for you,
But I cant,
Let us stand alone,
Let us stand strongly,
We will never loose our love,
I ll remember your smell,
I ll remember the way the earth turned just for you,
I hope you like the new you, you have created,
I hope my true love is just like you,
I hope yours is better than me,
I hope you smile for each star in the sky,
Meet as many people as you can,
They need to meet you,
Because you spread joy to whoever you happen upon.

Sweet Lana, the sweetest

Trapped Tears

Sometimes this soul is empty,
Because it is alone,
Please find me before I am lost,
Sometimes Im trapped in my own prison,
And I dug a tunnel from my prison to yours,
But I aint welcome there anymore,
I tried my best to be over you,
But the hole you left in me was so gaping,
I dulled it for these past years,
Then I picture of you I look upon,
And the loss comes back and hits me like a war-hammer,
But as much as I look I cant find the tears,
They must be let out because they are drowning my soul,
I must find a way,
I must learn to cry again,
I want to cry,
But the ducts are close for business,
And I drowning in anger and resentment,
Towards my so called father who abused me mentally,
And my Brothers and Sister who repress the abuse and stand by him with blind loyalty,
And to Svetlana how could you fall out of love with me,
I gave you my all, I wouldve gone to Toronto to be with you if you just waited,
Somedays I hate you, somedays I love you,
Its the same with my father,
So now Im trying to let it out,
It somehow works,
These words became my tears,
Seeping from my fingertips.

Earn it

They say you should love,
And respect your father,
No matter what,
But I believe love and respect is earned,
And mine as yet to do so,
In truth he is lucky he isnt hated.

Blah!

Those who throw the first stone,
Are the biggest sinners of them all,
Mindless little bigots should watch there aim,
Or else their stone might bounce back in their face,

So much hate around stored in vats of little c*nts,
Who have nothing better to do than dissolve our world,
Only dare fight in hordes,
Catch em alone and away they crawl, like the cowards they be.
Maybe we should just do society a favour and send them to the shooting range,

Somedays I think, why cant I pull a nymph,
Fill the day with lustful fun,
And never leave the bed again,
Or go for a ride Shelby GT 500 Mustang,
Cruise in such decadency,
Then crash it into a tree and start a new wonder life,

Somedays I think is why do I have to put up,
With mongs hiding behind knifes and guns,
I wish I could just break their necks,
And dance gaily on their graves,

Suppose if I had an harem,
And a billion quid,
Life would be too easy and get boring very quickly
But Id still like to find out if it would.

Ah so many sinners,
Telling other people theyre sinners,
Should shut their sanctimonious mouths,
What is a f*cking sin anyway,
Something written in a 2000 year old dusty book,
Written by misogynists, racist and homophobes from a barbarian age,
To keep control of the uneducated mass, (modern example America)
To me natures laws are the only laws I follow.

Caged

The warm light,
Breaks through the trees,
Pierces the skin,
Violates me,
Bang bang the door,
No not today,
Bang bang the door
Please go away,
Ring the phone,
Like a banshee,
Ring ring the phone,
Leave me alone,
Red does descend before my eyes,
Its the lord of the flies,
Inside me it lashes out,

Even the air does scare me,
Each molecule there to attack me,
Please world have mercy,
Do not deny me,
My own liberty,

To my cage,
I hold the key,
I am my own cage,
I am my warden.

Please don't destroy me,
i only wanted to be happy,
please dont criticise me,
i only want the grass green again,

i just want to embrace you
but i know not your face
you always change your name,
and always leave me pain,

please dont run from me
im tired of chasing you,
please dont shout at me i'm already humbled,

i'm done chasing you my downward spiral of hate

Sung
I sing a song to you my sweet,
Let me kiss your lips,
And lend ear to your laughter,
And live, dare I say it,
Happy ever after, Ja…..

Tears
A man who never cries,
Drowns and kills his soul,
In a million tears,
That were meant for the cheek.

Das Fueur
I now put the dragon,
Deep within me,
Next to my beating heart,
Now it will burn bright,
And what my eyes desire,
It will consume.

My words to You (As yet Faceless and Nameless One)

Your beauty makes me fragile,
Yet in strength I have with so many beautiful girls,
I lose my anchor and I’m drifting away,
Put out your hand bring me back to safety,
All I hope is that my words to you,
Make you smile and want to know me better.

Ears can Bleed

You’re pain is not my pain,
I’ve plenty of my own,
And I can live without yet more burdens,
You never will learn to change anyway,

Let it go I tell you,
Tell them no I tell you,
But yet again you cry,
Yet again you want to die,

Sorry if I seem colder,
But after a thousand times that line just gets older and older,
Sorry if I seem selfish,
But I want to survive and make sure,
That my children smile and laugh more than I did,

I will always be here when you need me,
For I would not be anywhere if it were not for thee,
But as far as I’m concerned I am fatherless,
I can forgive, but I cant forget,
And I will not hate him again.

Problems

We are nothing but small creatures,
Trying to solve insignificant problems,
Most times we will fail,
But we will try and try again,

We try so hard,
But to no avail,
And just then, when all hope seems lost,
A moment of genius will strike you,
And you’ll know the exact words to say,
And the exact actions to take,

The world will then melt over you,
Your problem is solved,
So enjoy life until the next problem comes along,
And just learn from the mistakes you make, and stay strong.

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The Russian Princess

Golden hair,
Emerald eyes, so piercing,
Such a sweet first love,
Such a painful last goodbye,
Oh Lana a saviour you be,
An introduction to beauty,
So nearly forgotten in the darkness,
Oh Lana smile for me,
Speak of me in a way I thought no one would,
You said I was beautiful,
But could not see your own,
Take my eyes and see yourself,
A goddess of wonder,
A gentle creature of amazing glory,
Words are too feeble to describe you,
Our souls shall forever be entwined,
The orchestra will always play our symphony,
And we shall dance in the snow,
And I ll catch your tears and turn them to diamonds,
When you need me too,
And I ll stand on the mountain with you,
And cry a river of pain that as been inside us all these years,
And the desert below will bloom again,
Our pains we shared will became a beautiful tapestry,
You inspired me to live a better life,
Youve inspired the colours in my mind,
Youve made me see I need to live for love,
Never on a pedestal did I put you,
Because you needed love not worship,
You needed emotion and devotion,
Not obsession,
You made me so angry with you stubbornness,
But thats because you reminded me of my own stupidity,
Oh Lana, all the plans we made,
Such foolish young pups,
Even said wed marry,
Lana, whats that look on your face?
Forgive me for failing you,
I tried to follow you,
I could not walk the ocean,
I just sank,
And the sky begins to bleed,
My tears become lost in the rain,
Like moments lost in time,
Forgive me for not falling out of love with you,
It would of been easier on us both,
But easy is boring,
Id swim through time for you,
But I cant,
Let us stand alone,
Let us stand strongly,
We will never loose our love,
I ll remember your smell,
I ll remember the way the earth turned just for you,
I hope you like the new you, you have created,
I hope my true love is just like you,
I hope yours is better than me,
I hope you smile for each star in the sky,
Meet as many people as you can,
They need to meet you,
Because you spread joy to whoever you happen upon.

Sweet Lana, the sweetest

Some people might have notice me and Sveta are back together, so happy endings. Although i have caused her grave insult saying shes russian, she's in fact Belarusi. Danke du.

Control

Anger, anger burning pure,
Fuel my blows for ever more,
Anger, controlled in my fist,
You are no longer my master,
A part of me to use when I see fit,
And not forced out to hurt the ones I love.

Fueled And Fighting

Sucking the saliva through my teeth i prepare to face,
Snorting anger, i picture demons in your place,
Cocking my fists to strike you down, Down! Down!
Dancing mirror images of each other,
The air has gone red,
Their is only one end now,
Clusters of bone striking bone,
The pain is nowhere,
Headpunch! Lowkick!
Chestpunch! Chestpunch! Chestpunch! Throw!
The fist is thrust to the face,
But their is no cracking embrace,
To the feet, walk away and bow,
Their will always be another round.

Herze

From the pool of flesh,
Was born a heart,
Into a world of blood,
Alone it remained,
It became jaded, no longer fresh,
No reason to remain sustained,
Its sorrow fused in the plasma,
And pumped into the formless flesh,
So much sorrow that it broke the dam,
And poured into lands of harsh rock and sulpher,

From the pool of flesh,
Was born a heart,
Into a world of blood,
Alone it remained,
It became jaded, no longer fresh,
This existence had become to much,
A world alone in blood too exhausting,
It stopped beating in the empty wastes,
But as it came to rest,
The blood flowed still ever so slight,
Another heart forced the liquid along,
Gently rocked by an other hearts beating,
It came back to life,

And the hearts grew a torso to hold them safe,
And the hearts grew legs to move them together,
And the hearts grew arms to feel their mate,
And the hearts entwined in an embrace,
And the hearts grew skin to caress as silk,
And the hearts grew eyes to see the devine,
And the hearts grew noses to smell the sweetest fragrance,
And the hearts grew ears to hear the angels choir,
And the hearts grew faces to express their desire!
And the heart grew a penis and the heart grew a vagina!
And the hearts thrust together and love was born!