cheers~
when i say never its because the child is part of me always has been i have never been like akemi as akemi is me inside a younger part of me trapped in limbo. thats where all my pain goes things i cant deal with are sorted out by this humanised part of my insides the (very real) child who lives in my heart
another reason why never is because this child (who incidently is strangely a boy and a girl i never worked that out either!) is amazingly strong and loving dealing with all my anger and pain and aniexty and fear and turning all this into life by being there pushing the blood round my body ~i know this isnt actually true but ever since i was the age that akemi always will be i needed to have someone to absorb my sh*t
like when i couldnt react on the outside because i would get hurt inside i could scream
this also fulfills the basic nurturing instinct i have as i can focus love on this part of me that i dont feel able to focus on the rest of me
its all a bit mental. but the poem is a good one i think anyways