First love

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chris_mcilroy

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10th Sept 2002 at 7:22 pm

 
Why did i do it?
It makes no sense to me. I lost you.
I gave up something I'll never forgive myself for
I ruined your life. I've ruined mine.
Your not safe from yourself. I should be there for you
But what did I do?

I lied. I knew you didn't do it
You couldn't. You wouldn't. I'm stupid
If i was brave enough i'd kill myself
But I'm not. So i'll stay. I'll stay.

Stupid. Self centred. Spoilt. Seeking
Seeking attention. Why am i so shallow? Why can't i be happy with what I've got?
You loved me. I loved you. Do you still love me?
I want to know
I gave you false hope. I gave you a dream
Why did i take it away?

What are these feelings? Sometimes I love, sometimes I hate
Here I sit. Looking at the problem.
It's where we first met. It's where I will lose you.
Here I sit, with nothing in my life.
Maybe I should end it now. Where's my knife?




Edited by chris_mcilroy Sept 2002

hikey

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11th Sept 2002 at 1:23 pm

its the semi automatic stun gun!!!!!!!!!!!! yeehaw

 
thats really good and sad too i hope you are okay man?
he aint all there he dont like beans!!!!!!!!!!!

uponthetelegram

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12th Sept 2002 at 4:17 pm

 
The other side to Bob Flapper.

Will

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13th Sept 2002 at 5:54 pm

 
that good. well done

chris_mcilroy

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14th Sept 2002 at 2:12 pm

 
Quote:
thats really good and sad too i hope you are okay man?


Yep. Am now. Damned women.

Quote:
The other side to Bob Flapper.


Ah so many sides, so little time

Quote:
that good. well done


ta Jeff.

John Cage Bubblegum

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15th Sept 2002 at 2:51 pm

John Cage Bubblegum -

 
*sniff* what can i say.... it's... just... beautiful *sob*

but seriously, it's great, thought-provoking even. makes me feel sort of glad i've never had a girlfriend. sort of.
Peter Kenyon has a medal


 
 
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