Death.

i'm sorry about your friend's boyfriend.

i don't know if anyone copes with death, though. Well, i'm not much good at it, anyroad. Sometimes i feel like i only have half a family. My paternal grandfather died before i was born and my paternal grandmother died when i was 8. My mother died when i was 21 and my maternal grandparents died a couple of months later.

Then my aunt's second husband died in 2007. i always refer to my aunt's first husband as my uncle. But even though i don't call him my uncle, i did love him and thought of him as part of my family. And my aunt's dog died in 2008. She was a great dog.

How i feel about my mother is weird because i don't think anyone misses her apart from me. At least that's how it seems. She hurt everyone but i still love her and wish i could have done something to stop her drinking.

My best friend died when I was 11. He was sick his whole life and missed pretty much the last 2 years of school when he was alive. But even though he was 11, he led an amazing life. He got to meet the whole Man United team when he was 9, even got birthday cards from some of them. He got to go to the World Cup final in 94 because there was a telly competition to win tickets, and he kept ringing in and ringing in and eventually won. Him constantly calling in racked up a phone bill of £900 that month, but when the telly people found out, they reimbursed his parents.

He was pretty much loved by everyone in the community. His funeral was the biggest I've heard of round my area. He started writing a book before he died, but didn't get to finish, so his folks hired a ghost writer to finish it. Book sold out within 2 weeks.

My neighbour also died in our house over 10 years ago when I was 13. Had a massive heart attck while he was looking out our sitting room window, waiting for someone to go by (I can't remember why). We were in the kitchen having dinner and heard a thud, but thought nothing of it. When my mother went in, she found him. The wake and everything was in our house too. I was pretty close to him. Both my maternal grandmother and paternal grandfather died before I was born, so my neighbours were like our other grandparents.

I still think about them a lot, but its important to remember the good times, not the bad. If you constantly worry about death, you might be slightly better prepared for it. But you'll never enjoy life as much.

(I didn't say anything funny in this post, which is unusual for me. However, if you re-read it in Joe Pasquales voice, it might be funnier)

Quote: Pippin., Sept 2009

My Grandparent's both died in 2003. I try to remember all my memories and think about lots of little happy thing. I visit their grave, sometimes, and think about them, but I do not tell anyone at-all. It is private and secret. I really miss them.
It does not feel like they are dead, sometimes, it just feels like they are...away (please does it make sense at-all?).
I am not scared about death and dying. I believe in *a* life after death, I think, but I am not sure.

Quote: Paddy Irishman, Sept 2009

(I didn't say anything funny in this post, which is unusual for me. However, if you re-read it in Joe Pasquales voice, it might be funnier)

Oh my goodness - nothing in Joe Pasquale's voice is funny, ever.

The away thing makes sense; i feel like that about my mother. i dream about her sometimes, which is weird as i only once dreamt about her when she was alive. And when i wake up i sometimes think that she is still alive and have to remind myself that she isn't. Like in April, it would've been her birthday and i dreamt about her and Cassie the dog a few days before it; i cried when i woke up.

Oh, and i agree with you about Joe Pasquale.

Quote: Paddy Irishman, Sept 2009

I agree that Joe Pasquale isn't funny, but him saying something serious in his voice would be hilarious.

Yeah, i see what you mean. His voice is funny but his jokes aren't.

joe used to be good, nowadays he's god awful, but yeah. back when he wasn't too well known to be on in york

but yeah, lets see...
all my grandparents are dead, never knew my granddad on me mams side, cancer went before i was born
my nanna went 10 years ago this year, always felt weird that i didn;t cry at her funeral... it was like i'd already done it all, she's the only really close one that's gone

it's actually overdue now... something's bound to happen soon though

been to quite a few funerals tbh. 7 i can think of right now.