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Rayanne Graff

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9th May 2007 at 8:55 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Need- 8th of May, 2007.

Screaming inside
full of visions
Numb and empty
wishing for hope.

Lost and desolate
confusion is normal
Hurt, ashamed
to be alive.

To be alive
is to be hurt
Ashamed
and disappointed.

Unexpected- 8th of May, 2007.

Crushed
hurt by the world
Maybe not trapped
but scarred and scared.

Fall into the sun
fall into despair
Held by uncertainty
kissed by insecurity.

The sky is the same
always the same
Comfort in stillness
as the stars dream again.

Melancholy- 8th of May, 2007.

When you look for hope
and you can't find it
It hurts
it aches, it hurts.

Spinning into calmness
whispering in sanity
Cover me protect me.

A flower to be watered
a tree to be loved
We are all
vulnerable creatures.

Place- 8th of May, 2007.

Scared of the world
but i don't want to be
And no-one ever
wants to be scared.

Some things you hope for
wait for, and wish for
Loved by despair
burdened by truth.

Torn by sadness
remembering too much
Alone or hidden
a shape; distorted, moulded.

Apart- 8th of May, 2007.

Empty my soul
cover my eyes
Too much sadness
too much hate.

Maybe it's
what i expected
Waiting for tomorrow
lost and alone.

Too late, too soon
uncertainty
Left me
scarred and fragile.

Alien- 8th of May, 2007.

Invisible
not comprehensible
Divided by time
and hurt by reason.

i don't know
but i always knew
Shadows and visions
torn into pieces,

That's why i'm
not comprehensible
i can't explain
but i wish i could.

Sense- 8th of May, 2007.

Sick, aching
i whisper to everyone
In circles, in spirits
Silence is a weapon.

To cover what i
can't face
Enclosed by walls
ashamed, ashamed.

i've been everywhere
i've been nowhere
i swapped my fears
for nothingness.

Edited by Rayanne Graff May 2007
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Rayanne Graff

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30th Jun 2007 at 9:18 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Other- 27th of June, 2007.

It felt like there
were so many questions
Sometimes things seem
bigger than they are.

i tried to answer
but there were
So many answers
too many possibilities.

Maybe i have feelings
but i'm too ambivalent
Feelings confuse everyone
especially me.

Good- 27th of June, 2007.

Too scared
because
It
hurts inside.

Falling apart
breaking
Pieces
fragments.

Passed into infinity
looking for hope and comfort
Scared
ashamed.
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Rayanne Graff

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11th Jul 2007 at 8:44 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Risk- 10th of July, 2007.

i won't cry
i don't want to cry
But sometimes
i just have to.

Sometimes
you
Just
have to.

And it hurts
so much
It hurts inside
i wish it didn't.

Include- 10th of July, 2007.

Words say so much
they don't say so much
They don't say
enough.

Some people think
they know everything
With their labels
and definitions.

But there are some things
they will never know
They don't deserve
to know.
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Rayanne Graff

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24th Nov 2007 at 9:42 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Among: 17th of November, 2007.

Define, label me
make me what you want to be
You think you know
well, maybe i don't care.

An ingredient, a quality
that is all you are to me
A wasted word, i close my eyes
i'm sick of being patronised.

Patronised, conspired against
they're nothing special, it makes no sense
i never asked, don't want to know
i've heard enough, i've heard too much.

A label, an assumption, an identity
only i know what i need
They should try to improve themselves
instead of taking it out on me.
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Rayanne Graff

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8th Aug 2008 at 8:46 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Fragile: 4th of July, 2008.

i shouldn't have done
what i did then
But something went
and i kept thinking.

It isn't me
but it is a part of me
Something is lost
incomplete, missing.

Too many feelings
confused, vulnerable
It didn't last
so i have to start again.

i didn't think
it would hurt so much
And i keep feeling
like i can't breathe.

Or at least i feel
shaken
And i feel sometimes
that i might cry again.

i tried to forget
or to almost forget
Then i saw the tissue
and i wish i hadn't seen it again.
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Rayanne Graff

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8th Aug 2008 at 8:48 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Intimidated: 24th of January, 2008.

No identity, hypocrisy
defined by labels
A vessel, a magnet
attached to ghosts.

Needed, expected
but it all turns into nothing
Invaded.

It all turns back
echoing again
He can't hurt me
he can't read my mind.
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Rayanne Graff

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15th Nov 2008 at 9:18 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Thumb: 14th of November, 2008.

All these feelings
i never had them
Or i never
knew i had them.

i could hurt someone
although i don't want to
But i feel like it
sometimes.

Like a butterfly
flying away
To freedom
and to safety.

i have rage and spirit
just like anyone else
It's coming back.
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Rayanne Graff

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15th Nov 2008 at 9:35 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Describe: 7th of November, 2008.

i feel so alone
like an alien
But i don't care
because i expect it.

i've lost everything
and everything hurts
i should feel nothing
instead.

But i cry all the time
or i think i should
Because everything hurts
all the time.
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Rayanne Graff

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22nd Nov 2008 at 9:36 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Real: 21st of November, 2008.

My heart is breaking
all the time
And i'm crying
inside.

i don't know where
all this rage came
From. i wish i could
hide from the world.

i feel like screaming
but i never could
i'm a wreck
invisible and frozen.

i've always tried
to be invisible
Because i don't want
to hurt anyone.
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Rayanne Graff

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22nd Nov 2008 at 9:50 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Brave: 21st of November, 2008.

The world is so hard
i'm scared, always
Crying and sighing
for hours and days.

i'm trapped by time
as i feel too much
Haunted by fragments
wounded by touch.

Everything crashes
too much for me
But i can't go back
to what i used to be.

Thoughts walk past
lost like a stone
i feel so ashamed
i feel so alone.
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Rayanne Graff

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28th Mar 2009 at 7:07 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Subject: 28th of March, 2009.

i don't expect anything
expect anyone
To feel this
to understand.

i'm crying inside
all the time
Sometimes i feel so ashamed
of this.

Being part of this world
not being part of it
Both
at the same time.

There is no explanation
it is what i thought
But it is worse
because i am weak.
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Rayanne Graff

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11th Nov 2009 at 11:19 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Infection- 9th of November, 2009.

Disappointment to the world
hiding in the clouds
Forsaken by safety
when everyone is a ghost.

The thunder laughs
so i am alone
Where everything is shame
too much to bear.

When i've tried to be
everything else
Everyone else
there is nothing left to be.
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Rayanne Graff

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31st Oct 2010 at 10:28 am

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Assume- 29th of October, 2010.

People who know everything
they think they know everything
They can't know me
maybe i don't want them to.

Invaded, patronised
i do have feelings
Even though i'm not supposed to
the world doesn't want me to.

i should block people out
maybe i should block everything out
Almost everything
because it's scarily comforting.

Everything scares me
especially people
i don't want to be scared
i don't want to be hurt.

Edit: Perhaps i shouldn't have written this poem. Never mind posting it. It's just that, even though i'm a rem and a statistic, i don't like it when some people emphasise that
i'm a statistic. Perhaps because i already think that i am one.

Edited by Rayanne Graff Nov 2016
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Rayanne Graff

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2nd Nov 2010 at 10:47 pm

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Fold- 29th of October, 2010.

i can hear the world
but sometimes can't see
Don't want to look
don't want to be.

Pieces of memories
that don't want to be heard
But can fly away
and be loved by birds.

When everything's quiet
too hurt to be proud
Being invisible
is like a soft cloud.
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Rayanne Graff

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1st Dec 2011 at 7:06 pm

Rayanne Graff - River Phoenix

River Phoenix

 
Window- 1st of December, 2011.

Paper faces
white paper faces
They look spooky
but i like to look at them.

i think one of the faces
has antlers
Maybe they're meant to be for Christmas.

They look spooky
but i think they're pretty.
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