Old Ellis poems (i dont write em like i used to)

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moominmamma

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5th Aug 2002 at 11:03 am

moominmamma - buzz cut minge & the starspangled family planners

buzz cut minge & the starspangled family planners

 
Memorys;nasal,inner,visionary and repressed.

my nose remembers;

emptied bowels and singed hair,
p*ss stained mattresses,
and pools of blood splattered on the linoleum.
P*ss running down my leg,
cowering in my sh*t
pungent STINKING fear

my inner child remembers;

being raped while watching bodies dismembered
on p*ss stained mattresses.
Then being beaten on frozen linoleum
p*ss running down my leg,
cowering im my sh*t,
wishing i would be killed.

my visonary mind remembers;

haunting faces melted by blow torches,
tied up and raped,made to eat your sh*t.
Cut burnt and kicked,
watching murder but DETATCHED
like a screen.
But no censorship in my eyes now,
i see their screams.

my repressed memory has retained;

I cannot remember my birthdays,
only when i was five,
I cannot remember any holidays,
I cannot remember most of my childhood friends.
I cannot remember most of my education.
I cannot remember ever feeling sane,
I cannot remember ever feeling safe.
I cannot remember the happy long summers of my youth.
PLEASE GOD
PLEASE TELL ME THEY DID EXIST.


ellis hewison.






D; Pressed Flowers.

My flowers grow backwards
sinking delicate petals
back
into the dark earth
screaming
crying
fearing their birth.



ellis hewison
god im so fat

moominmamma

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5th Aug 2002 at 11:08 am

moominmamma - buzz cut minge & the starspangled family planners

buzz cut minge & the starspangled family planners

 
*LEAPFROGA* i hope no one minds.
i wrote these when i was about 13 i was relitevely intelliegent at 13 and i think they still stir feelings in me now, they arnt good or anything but i just used to write a lot of things about feelings and stuff when i was younger now i just get high. theres a moral to that story im sure.
ellis.
god im so fat

Caged Liberty

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5th Aug 2002 at 7:45 pm

Caged Liberty - Torrential high seas dragged me to my knees

Torrential high seas dragged me to my knees

 
keep on writing it helps to get the pain out, not that I"m an expert or anything


 
 
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